7th July 09 Rainy Boring Monday

I was on my way back from Perth and throughout the flight, my mind was thinking abt the News Article about Qantas Aircraft sudden plunge down resulting in injuries and damages to the pax n aircraft! Dunno why out of a sudden I felt tat life is jus so unpredictable and we never know wat will happen to us tmr or even the next min.

When I arrived back in Sin, with my feet back on the ground, I started taking out my hp and message a few ppl telling them it’s time to catch up and mit up knowing everyone is well n good. I have the sudden urge to rush home and see my love ones… And of coz all my friends… I MISS all of them…

Hmmmmm… other then the drama mention above, recently I have been heading to Aussie station very often stretching myself to the limits with minimum rest… n scarifying time with Huaiti~ but on the other hand I tell myself is gd money and I have been trying to save up for our Anniversary Trip in OCT~ But now, I dunno why I am like not so into it anymore… Maybe becoz I am the only one keen abt it from the beginning? Or maybe I have been flyin to Aussie too often that I am getting bored of it?

Actualli this period of time away n alone have put me into doin alot of thinking… Age is catchin up and I am still a nobody, far from attainin my GOAL of F.R.I.E.N.D.S Cafe~ My relationship with Huaiti… Am I a good n understandin Lover? Can Huaiti accept my family jus like acceptin me… Gettin Married, buyin house, supportin my parents and let Dad retire? Lots of things have been goin thru my mind.

Always away on weekends is another problem I am currently facin… I really need quality time with Huaiti but god is jus not on our side… Weekdays plus minus 2-3 hrs are the most we have… In between filled with bitchin and little quarrels, we left we nothing… (today on the cabby Huaiti bought me a gift, If i could choose again, I will still choose you) I remember sayin this to myself too while watch 17again~ We jus love each other so strongly but why are there silent treatment period when time is already not on our side… Why our days n life together are not like Fairytale living happily together everyday… I hated it when we have quarrels or cold war… N the feelin of breaking up still flashes across my mind sometime. Always not seein things eye to eye, issues abt habits… all this are jus tiring me out when we r already both half drained by work…

From the start, I am determine to spend the rest of my life with this person n built a family together… I guess GOD is jus testing us, pushin us to our limits…

I wished for “ ” when i go round the Suntec fountain earlier… Jus hope tat my life wld be more smooth sailing and things will work out really well in time to come…